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2008-08-09T01:02:00.001+08:00

im moving away! (:

2008-05-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

2 consecutive netball practices spells muscle aches.

im really aching everywhere! climbing up stairs, climbing down stairs. goodness. but practice really makes perfect. i feel im a lot better than i was before. but uh, still far from perfect eh. haha.

time spent with gohlifen today was good. not much of the IT project completed though. so we're gna have to continue again tmr. well at least 1/3 of karuna's uploaded work has been completed. and im still staring blankly at my word doc cos i really dont know how to start writing that stupid essay. and deadline's next friday, along with IT proj deadline, karuna's assignment and a test. RAH.

im stressed and i need my sleep.

makes things worse when there's no you.

2008-05-26T22:48:00.002+08:00

that's us at the alumni, which serves fab food.

anw today was one of the rare days that we actually play during our play module (1PMDYC) though the activities were a little......weird.

stayed in school with lifen till 7plus today to do a little of the IT proj. it's so tough really, looking at all the prices and specs. ):

oh i went for netball makeup today and coach seems to be less strict with this team. she did drills with them that our group did quite some time back so it wasnt that bad for me but i could tell the rest were dying. haha. ive netball again tmr cos it's my actual lesson for this week and the last one as well. then we'll be doing IT proj again. rah.

im very lacking in rest, so night now.

2008-05-23T14:07:00.001+08:00

haha my IT teacher is so funny. she just asked us if David Cook is really a cook.

hahahahaha.

2008-05-23T01:43:00.002+08:00

look into your heart and you'll find love love love

have been very tired. oversleeping on a lot of days and missing a lot of lessons. which means more lessons next week cos i have to attend makeup.

tmr's friday....then NDP, then chorale duty. then we're back to monday again. it really never ends. at least i do find little things that bring me joy in everything i do.

god, sustain me.

things would have been better if.......you were here.

2008-05-20T18:50:00.002+08:00

oh yes! MSS would be at a flea tmr!

Ngee Ann Poly Atrium
11am to 7pm

be sure to come and support us!
oh mail me at sendit2clar@yahoo.com should you need more details (:

2008-05-20T14:15:00.002+08:00

im back from sofitelllllll :D

with lotsa mosquito bites.(7 in total on both legs) nonetheless it's one of the best retreats ive ever went to. i left feeling...........complete. and i got to know alot of the other people in the across the youthnet better as well.

i didnt go to school today cos it was elearning week for 1FNENG. oh in case you didnt know my school works very differently. we dont have elearning week as in one whole week dont have to go to school but we have elearning week based on the different modules. meaning if this week is the elearning week for 1FNENG, then i wldnt have to go to all the lectures and tutorials for 1FNENG for that week but i still have to go for the rest of my other modules. very complicated eh?

anw. this week is elearning wk for 1FNENG and so i only had S&W today from 8am to 10am. was too tired plus i was having a bad headache so i didnt go. still have to go make up this coming week lah.

so im home trying to complete my online assignments as well as studying for tmr's quiz. thank god my group already completed 2 projs. still got another 2 more to go as well as many tests coming up.

till then!

2008-05-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

im dying in my IT classroom. the men outside are painting the walls and the smell is suffocating me.

headache ):

2008-05-15T00:31:00.001+08:00

oh and im positive someone hates me.

i jst recieved an email from windows live asking me to verify if i really want to change my password. wow thanks, ANOTHER hacker.

):

2008-05-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

isaiah 40:31

ive this really ugly blue black on the lower part of my right leg): clumsy clar tripped and bumped into the netball goal post during netball ytd. my leg was twisted in some funny angle at that point of time so thank god it's jst a blue black and no sprains nothing.

i took some time off to shop with mumsie today. it really was very much needed....for us both.

FP tmr mrng, ICCDV then project work. let's hope all goes well tmr.

clinging very much onto that glimmer of hope.

2008-05-13T22:07:00.003+08:00

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

im tired, very.

2008-05-12T19:45:00.002+08:00

i cant believe who i saw today.

melvin and joseph, two of my primary 5 classmates. they changed so much! but i doubt they can remember me. it's quite funny really.

anw in a nutshell, life hasnt been easy.

change...........is a constant.

2008-05-11T22:20:00.002+08:00

"This is it, Joel. It's going to be gone soon."
"I know."
"What do we do?"
"Enjoy it."

those who watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind would most prob rmb this scene.

sorta reminds me of the current juncture of my life.

2008-05-11T09:29:00.002+08:00

someone hacked into my account again.

not this current blog but the old one, if some of you have read in the past. (yeahthelove.blogspot.com) and that person periodically blogs really stupid stuff and then locks the blog. the only way i myself could access it was through the account.

maybe i should give up blogging totally. i dont understand why pple want to like cause something to happen to me or smth. what did i do? they dont know the extent of damage they have done. it's so stupid really. okay maybe it's my fault too for being so so so silly to not delete my old blogs. (yes, all 3 are still in my acct)

okay tada, deleted. stupid people.

2008-05-06T23:32:00.001+08:00

study study study study.

2008-05-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

yawns.

this has to be the most hectic monday in my entire almost-one-month in ngee ann. it's the first ounce of stress that ive felt for the longest time.

im beginning to feel overloaded with information and just like what karuna said today abt the rubber band being stretched to its fullest potential. every lecture i go, every tutorial i go, tons of information and theories and whatever are shoven down my throat and i dont have any time to process. karuna's lecture, bee gek's tutorial, WW's tutorial. that already enough to kill me for today.

break time was spent at canteen 3 and the library.....studying. thank god i managed to finish reading and somewhat memorising chapter 8. but i didnt do very well for the quiz anyway.

so that's one quiz down, one more quiz next week, assignments, project work..................yeah it's all coming.

rewind-

the stresses of NDP start to surface to me already. i was totally drained out at the end of ytd. i knew i had 4 stacks of notes waiting for me at home but all i wanted to do was sleep.

other than that, ive been learning alot there. (see, information overload)

i really need god's strength and i need to change my perspective. and i want a break.

okay, i need to rest now. netball tmr again!

2008-05-04T23:59:00.001+08:00

i spent the last of my sunday night having dinner with my parents and plucking white hair for my mum.
there goes my weekends. hello to monday............again.

oh f21 stuffs are very pretty.

2008-05-01T01:42:00.002+08:00

netball with them's the best.

speaking of which, im having horrible muscle aches now due to netball S&W on tuesday.
the real coach came (we had a replacement last week cos she cldnt make it) and she made us do so many drills!

suicide run, which is something like shuttle run except that you run a longer distance each time you come back and go again, was horrible. then she tidied up our chest pass and shoulder pass, footwork and blah blah. i really almost died cos unfit Clar hasnt been exercising since................................................

yeah you get the idea. so everywhere's aching and im determined to actually go running! except that i hvnt decided when to start. hahahaha.

attachment at kim keat NTUC CC starts next week. can't wait! thank god joanne's with me and im not alone. do pray that i'll get good and nice kids as well as mentors that will guide me well.

lots of notes + theories to read up on. and projects are all coming soon. jiayou clar!

2008-04-30T14:08:00.001+08:00

rented vids last week and class ended at 10am today, so i came home to catch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

fab movie.awesome.

2008-04-28T23:13:00.003+08:00

im not bored. but i have bored friends. so here's for you guys.

7 Random Things About Me:
1) I actually like the dark in my room. ONLY in my room.
2) I love red nails.
3) I am prone to walking up the wrong side of escalators.
4) My favourite way of spending time with God is to take a really really really long walk or sitting where's it's quiet and there's no one around.
5) I still love barbie's clothes.
6) My room is constantly messy.
7) I love to wear pretty sundresses (:

7 Random Songs:
1) HO HO HO as much vitamin B6 and 48 bananas.....................
2) Paper by Daphne Khoo
3) Breathe of life by hillsongs
4) you've got a friend by mcfly
5) happy birthday by click five
6) young folks by peter, bjorn and john
7) holy by paradise live

7 Things I Say The Most Often:
1) OMG OMG OMG!
2) Huh?
3) aiyoh!
4) im hungry again
5) eh you know hor
6) no no no no no!
7) huh i dont know leh.

7 Things I'm Afraid Of:
1) creepy crawlies and all other gross creatures
2) dying all alone
3) giving birth
4) not being able to have kids.
5) something to happen to the ones i love
6) doors to close and flatten me
7) not enough time

7 Of My Favourite Foods:
1) herb pepper pasta courteousy to my mumsyyyyyy
2) potato salad
3) all home cooked food
4) curry potato, grilled potato, fried potato, whatever potato
5) yong tau foo
6) sambal stingray and sotong !
7) RICE. MUST HAVE. :D

okay, f21 stuff have arrived, yay.

2008-04-24T23:57:00.001+08:00

highlights of the day:
1. Karuna's lesson
2. Dinner and everything else with Jo

the rest of the day was pretty......... rah.

lessons at 9 tmr.

2008-04-22T21:37:00.012+08:00

school's been cool.

besides the fact that i have a rather crappy timetable and mountains that i have to climb every mrng (ngee ann is VERY hilly), i quite enjoy going to school.

S&W and functional english today. btw, S&W is sports and wellness. it's basically a module that we all have to take where we get to choose a sport that we want to do for that semester. exactly like PE, except you do the same sport every PE. no prizes for guessing which one i took(:

&&&&&&& just when i was so looking forward for it to start today, I WAS LATE. but so not my fault! there was this massive jam in bishan and it was pouring and there were faulty traffic lights and blah blah, you get the picture. so jo and i were late for like 20mins? managed to skip the running and started all the ball control, warmup thingy. WHICH IM TOTALLY BAD AT.

anw yada yada yada, highlight was that i got to play two matches of netball! both as goal defence. and i really miss netball with 4integrity so much ):

functional english reminded me of P6 english drilling period. hahaha. seriously, all the subject-verb agreement rule and all. oh anw, we are learning the basics of english again cos they say ECH teachers speak horrible english. ohwel.

ytd was cool. we were given scrap materials to build smth, so my group came up with this giraffe. pipes, hoses, towels, petals, straws, tape, cupcake paper containers, empty tissue box.

from clockwise left, sophie, li fen, jia yi, aifah and myself.

oh you see we're all wearing name tags, hahaha. our lecturer made us wear it every lesson. anw i look very chui in the photos cos i was ultra tired. mondays are exhausting. we still had one more tutorial after this class.

tmr's a one hour lecture on IT. can you imagine, 9am to 10am, then i go home. the journey to and fro is even longer than the lecture itself lah! sian X10000000.

still love school.

2008-04-22T21:29:00.001+08:00

now with JESUS. amazing.

2008-04-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

1C01/ T05 (:

everything's been good so far. jst very tiring. ngee ann has 1938423463187468327294 hills. i bet my legs have became alot more muscular.

retreat till sunday!

2008-04-11T23:23:00.004+08:00

aiyah i missed the planetshakers concert this year):

rahhhhh. could have gone actually but i didnt cos i had to work. i COULD have told them to replace me today but i knew i just had to go cos today was officially my last day at work. no more of my horrible kids after this, so horrible kids VS planetshakers.......................

my horrible kids win lah. haha.

actually not really if you go think about it cos im still working every thursday after school, but i wouldnt get to see my kids from the tuesday and friday time slots anymore. quite sad really. i will def miss them): maybe the next time i teach them again they would have shot up several levels alr. and i had an exceptionally high level of patience for my horrible kids today maybe cos it's my last day. and they all completed alot of boxes! all 4 and above(: yay.

so anw today was orientation day. managed to hitch a ride from jo's dad and really thank God cos the jam was horrible. which means ive to crawl out of bed so much earlier next week just to get to school on time. oh i wna drive! anw i got to know loads of people from........everywhere!

elizabeth who's this random girl who tagged on jo's blog and told her she got into ECH and they decided to just meetup (like !?!?), elizabeth's friend's friend, chan's friend, chan's friend's friend, jo's church friend, some girls from FC and like whoa. i was overwhelmed. and mind you, we are all in ECH. hahahaha. it's amazing in a really weird way.

then it was talks and more talks. motivational speakers, ya da ya da. oh and im still not used to sitting in a LT with so many pple who all love kids and wna work with kids. it's like they jst show this video of a year3's FYP and when a kid's face appears, everyone gushes. okay it's just weird cos....aiyah, just weird.

oh! one thing i really want to thank god for is cheap and good school food. HAHAHAH.

so there, NDP starts tmr and i can't wait!

xoxo.

2008-04-11T01:04:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chXEraRnE4o

OH MY GOODNESS. just go watch this video.

it's been on repeat mode on my comp screen. and goosebumps appear on my skin everytime it's playing. i am just so so so so amazed.

this is the song that was sang as a closing song on american idol. and im speechless. it really shows the work God is doing in america. can you imagine the millions and millions of television screens that were playing that song.

okay i really dont know what else to say to tell you guys how amazed i am at God. im speechless, really.

2008-04-10T01:29:00.002+08:00

my mum found a very interesting way to kill the ants that love to come into our cornflakes, biscuits, cookies and yada yada.

put the whole pack into the fridge.

and afterwhich i think it gets quite gross cos you see the dead ants everywhere. like swimming in your bowl of cereal with milk. well cruel eh, but at least they die in paradise.

god is so good
god is so good
god is so good
he's so good to me.

2008-04-09T17:37:00.003+08:00

oh im eating alot.

personal pan pizza and 4 spicy drumlets plus abowl of cereal with milk and yakult for lunch. dinner in another 1.5hours?........

a plate of chicken rice and chinchow dessert and a mos rice burger and a croquette pie and a pack of lemon and garlic mussels for dinner last week.

humongous amount food intake. scary.

no, no weight gain yet. fats? yah have. hahahaha.

2008-04-09T16:52:00.002+08:00

im soupppper excited :D

school starts this coming monday! never knew it was going to start so early until i called NP on monday. so bye to my slacking/working/shopping days and hello to new life in NP.

orientation camp for the school of humanities started today and i didnt go. but there's a compulsary one-day thing this friday that i would be going. thank god i alr know quite a number of people in ECH so at least there would be familiar faces on the first day. like what jo said, enrolling into a new school is scary. it's the first day thing that i experienced when i was in primary one, secondary one and now poly year one. imma high S so i guess that explains it all. haha. aiyah everything will turn out fine lah!

so ive been spending the holidays that i have left pretty wisely. would def miss the late nights and late mrngs (that has been doing lots of damage to my skin) and of course thousand and one shopping trips and spending time with the very dearests.

anw im so glad that SOL classes have resumed. been very very very blessed by pastor SL. the end of the 40 day fast really marks a new beginning for God and i which i truly truly cherish.

how lovely is your dwelling place o lord almighty
my soul yearns even faints for the courts of the lord
my heart and my flesh cry out for the living god
even the sparrow has found a home
and the swallow a nest for herself
where she may have her young
a place near your altar
o lord almighty my king and my god
blessed are those who dwell in your house
they are ever praising you
blessed are those whose strength is in you
who haveset their hearts on pilgrimage
as the pass through the valley of baca
they make it a place of springs
the autumn rains also cover it with pools
they go from strength to strength
till each appears before god in zion.
an extract from psalm 84.

2008-04-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

i got my timetable!

haha. very happy and excited. dont know when school starts though. everything seems to have been pushed forward. timetable was supposed to come out on the 12th onwards only.

seems like im in different class from joanna and chantel, cos our schedules are all different! only my monday classes are the same as jo's. ohwell, doesnt matter la!

okay, off to work.

2008-03-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

i finally did my blood test! no pain at all, yay. thank god.

2008-03-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

my parents are going to cambodia from 31st may to 7th june.

and they are going kampong cham!!! i want to go back there very very very very very badly. my mum showed me their programme sheet and it's about the same as the last time i went. very interesting cos this time round it's a very small team, just 6 couples from my parents' network. i miss my chicken coop ): and of course every kid there.

worky work work tmrrrrr.

2008-03-14T13:55:00.002+08:00

sing my soul unto god alone;

Pray, and let God worry

- Martin Luther

today's psalm is very apt for this season of my life. so many times i allow myself to be consumed by the negative thoughts of my mind that i forget the goodness of God. that i sometimes just take it for granted. to say a thousand of times that i surrender myself to him yet taking my words back once again. what martin luther says is so true- to pray and let god worry. isnt that what surrendering really is actually?

god's covenant has not changed and will not change. i want to return back.....the height ive fallen from.

2008-03-12T01:42:00.002+08:00

i got my laptop already anw. compaq! but it's just sitting there being not much of a use cos there's no wireless in my house. will be getting soon i guess.

lots of letters from NP, almost one everyday. about orientation camp, welcome letter, student union, laptop fair, medical checkup yada yada yada. so much admin stuff to do lah. next week will have to go for medical checkup and go online to register for my course and to OCBC to pay school fees. then following week to mail back more forms & maybe go for orientation camp?? and the following week after that, checking enrolment status, class timetable and collect my student pass and EZlink card. then school will start.

okay still long way to go.....

2008-03-12T01:34:00.002+08:00

it affects me that girls get so upset because they want to become super thin or grow fat. yet i know i can't do much but pray. they're all are really pretty but they just don't see their own beauty but choose to look at what they do not have. i chanced upon so so so so so so many communities in livejournal where the girls just post up thousand and one pictures of stickthin girls and they just share about how they thin they want to become and how they hurt themselves when they do not like the way the look in the mirror.

i know it hurts god hundred thousand million times more.

i dont know why im feeling upset about it):

2008-03-07T10:50:00.003+08:00

happy;

finally we're making sales. yay. besides the fact that this whole shop thingy is robbing us of a majority of the precious free time we have left (orientation's ard end of this mth- start of next mth), it actually is quite fun to manage this whole thing.

sending in my form E today. getting my laptop tmrw or sunday! triple yays(: still undecided on which one to get though, and still asking for opinions from the whole world. imma total idiot at IT stuff.

today and tmrw would be busy days. IT fair, stock collection, work, cell, PHS jumbo fair and lime flea market. oh yes and to watch the web-streaming of last sunday's sermon again.

mysunshinespot.livejournal.com (:

2008-03-03T16:14:00.001+08:00

school hurry startttttttttttttt ):

fried rice yum.

2008-03-03T11:49:00.000+08:00

i recieved my orientation package on saturday(:

lotsa admin to do, very confused.

2008-02-27T13:53:00.002+08:00

i pray that i can do more for god.

edited/
something about this photo tugged the strings of my heart when i blogged this earlier(& it's not the cuteness of ignez)

child-like faith.

2008-02-26T00:03:00.003+08:00

oh i forgot the mention, ive been checking the mailbox everyday just to see if my orientation package for school has arrived.

kiasu lah, yes i know.

no.the word is excited.

no,very excited (:

2008-02-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

In the garden
i come to the garden alone
while the dew is still on the roses
and the voice i hear
falling on my ear
the son of god discloses

and he walks with me
and he talks with me
and tells me i am his own
and the joy we share as we tarry there
none other has ever known

he speaks and the sound of his voice
is so sweet the birds hush their singing
and the melody that he gave to me
within my heart is ringing

i'll stay in the garden with him
though the night around me befalling
but he bids me go through the voice of woe
his voice to me is calling

i just heard the sermon pastor preached two weeks ago. missed the bulk of it as i was serving hospitality and spending half the time backstage. but god is very very good. he ministered to me there and then at my seat even though i had no idea what pastor preached about.

this is the song that ministered to me alot. it's a hymn which is why the lingo's a little different. im glad my church is in this season of drawing near to god and going back to old hymns. they really minister alot to me. i love old hymns!

anw im chao ta again.sentosa with steph and amanda today.they got psychoed by an uncle there to work part time at sentosa waving the people off in the sentosa express.HAHA.ohwelllllllll.

the constantly appearing word in today's psalm: in god i trust, what can mortal man do to me?

2008-02-24T20:31:00.002+08:00

~~god, i promise you i wouldn't do it anymore.~~

god, i know im still going to do it when i walk out of this place, but that is the very reason why im here telling you that i cannot do it so i need you.

2008-02-21T01:17:00.002+08:00

i love my new skin so much i want to post everyday. hahaha.

bugis/haji with taywaimun today.the earrings i wanted are sold alr!but i got this really really nice vintage dress at JUST 10 BUCKS. i know i sound very cheapo here cos it's from the bargain bin, but it's really pretty okay. then we had the usuals before we both had to rush off.

i think i should put a tagboard in, but a little lazy to do the alignment thingy and all.someday when im bored la.

oh yah!i found a couple of friends who's studying early childhood too :D some i found them cos i googled NP early childhood(kudos to jo) and others found me.haha.so it's quite cool really.ECH has friendly people!im saying this for the millionth time but im gna say it again, i really can't wait to start school (:

am really tired and craving for CNY goodies, i should go sleep.

2008-02-19T21:25:00.001+08:00

yay i finally changed my really plain looking skin to this one. (after much editing which also explains why all old posts are gone, i accidentally deleted it) anw!ive happy news to share;

I GOT INTO EARLY CHILDHOOD AT NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC! :D

like i strived through that 4 horrible years just to want to end up here and by god's grace.. here i am!(: have to admit that after recieving my results and before submitting my choices i had a sudden change of heart and kept thinking twice if i should go ahead with ECH afterall. like maybe business or smth safer would be better. in the end my first choice was psychology&community service, second was ECH and third was applied drama&psychology. i honestly wanted all 3, like a mixture.hahaha.but i just submitted and told God that i'll let him make the decision. so yep, im happy (: oooh ya!both joanna and chan's in the same course as me!so happy la!!!i wouldnt be alone on the first day!can take bus 52 with jo as well!YAYYYYYYYY.i really cant wait to start school, i know im gonna love it.

tmr's another day out with taywaimun.lunch and the usuals.

anw i really thank god that im fasting from the telly and psp cos i realised how much of a distraction it can be. my mum has been on MC for 2 days now and usually when we have our meals we would swtich on the telly and our conversation would naturally be on the show we're watching. but now that we cannot watch the telly (and silence is always awkward) we are in a way "forced" to make conversation. and so far ive heard my mum complaining to me about my dad, sharing with me about a friend, work, my brother, my uncle, my aunt and yadayadaaa. so no telly's good actually. VERY good actually. do miss the local dramas though.

and the one hour plus plus plus spent in God's presence ytd was truly fufilling. i finally got down to praying for the people i always said i would pray but never did and really soaking in the presence of the lord. only last night after spending that time with the lord did i fully understand what pastor khong meant when he told the church, "the lord said,tell my people how much i love them." cos we're just missing the main point.im glad that FC's bringing the old hymns and everything back. it brought back something i havent felt from god for a very long time.

on a side note,DE tribe!let's keep the devotions flowing into the tribe blog!